Why am I awake at this hour????

I have been sleeping SO well lately so I dont know what to attribute this bit of insomnia to but oh well I thought I would take the tim eto upload pics and blog since i have been slacking at the whole blogging thing here lately. I actually did write a post early Monday morning but chose not to post it as it was kinda harsh and didnt want to be such a Debbie Downer, I also realized blogging when your are living on less than 10hrs a sleep (for the WHOLE weekend) and your feelings are hurt AND you have had an AWFUL weekend at work THAT my friends is not the best time to blog lol. So I wil take the oppurtunity to now. This weekend was Mothers Day and I have to say for the second year in a row it has just been missing something for me. My Family doesnt get together on holidays like we use to for a number of reasons all of which are a little sad but its always been ok until I had Will and now it just makes me sad and I want so bad to change this but underlying circumstances make it alnost impossible. Last year I was still such a new mommy that i think my hormones were still a little out of whack and then this year seemed to be about "everything" else besides the true meaning of the day. Next year I think I wanna spice it up and maybe take a weekend trip between Mothers Day and Fathers Day (LORD knows the drama going on the actual days would cause lol) to really enjoy our journey through parenthood that we began a little over a year ago.
Ok so now that this weekend is over back to reality i am swamped with editing shoots, this is a good thing but if you know me I like to edit right after I take pics and since Wills birthday I have found myself behind so I got to CATCH up. I have been editing at night but that makes for one sleepy momma come morning time which is officially Wills favortie time of the day :) I really wish I wouldve written it down or copy and pasted it but of course I didnt and now for the life of me I cant remember where I read it but it really hit home at 4am this mornign when I woke up and have been up ever since.
Basically it was a quote or status post or little snippet from somewhere that explained as parents that we try to capture every first in our childs life, celebrate every milestone but what we often fail to recall is the last time our child does something and thats a tear jerker bc so quickly they arent our little babies anymore they blossom into toddlers, teens, adeults, etc. and this am really slapped me in the face with this one. Wills sleep patterns have never been bad. When he forst came home he wanted to eat...every hr. That was a little hard but he would sleep on my chest for hours on end. When we transitioned him from our room to his he did great, then we had the "Target" incident where he bumped his head and overprotected mommt started the sleeping in the bed with us, again he would sleep all night in our bed not so much when we tried the crib again. Nut slowly he has gotten better, for the longest time he would stay in his crib till 2 or so and then get in bed with us. over the last few months the 2 changed to 4 and 5 am and it just hit me lying here (prior to blogging) that my little man now prefers to sleep in his crib ALL night. Dont get me wrong this is a great thing and I am so thrilled but use to on the nights I couldnt sleep I atleast had a sleeping angel to watch, now i just have the snoring hubby LOL who sat straight up in bed a few moments ago completely rearranged the comforter laying over us spoke the one word toilet and drifted back to sleep...I dont know WHAT that was about but it did keep me entertained. Its bittersweet i guess, and to make it worse I use to atleast get naps during the day with my munchkin but now when i lay himdown with me he just tosses and turns until i go put him in his crib and then he is out like a light. I know this will help with keeping the house clean but that was just our unwritten quiet time....tear. he is just showing me everyday how he is now a toddler and no longer my baby. Another thing that may have made me crabby this weekend was that he took his first three steps and neither me nor his daddy were around to see it. He did end up showing daddy that he could take one step but he doesnt wanna show me yet ( I guess he knows that will be just another was to show his big boyness to me) He has however just today started standing at all times pretty much. He has breen cruising for some time and even going from sitting to standing for short bits but today all he wanted to do was stand up all by himself nothing to hold onto or help him up so I know that means walking is right around the corner...Lord help us when that day finally comes hes gonna be you know what on wheels hehe! There is no doubt that he is ALL boy! So i think this concludes my early morning rambling session now time to get all my stuff in order for the day i am driving to byahlia MS to meet up with my cousin in law to take some pics of her daughter (Wills cousin) and we are gonna find some fields with the wildflowers I cannot wait!